NEARING...ENVELOPMENT IN STRANDS...STRESS FEAR OF 'LOSING CONTROL'

REACTIVITY IN THWARTING, HYPERVIGILANCE...SHAME, EMBARRASSMENT....FAILURE TO MEET SOME MODEL OR IDEAL...THE IMPOSITION ORDERING-TO HIDE ONESELF TO PROTECT ONESELF...IN FLIGHT...VIGILANCE...VANISHING POINT...

CLIZIA...AS HER SUITORS APPROACH CLIZIA WITHDRAWS...

PARALLEL WORLD-GLAMOR AS PAIN RELIEF MILITARY WIVES AND RAWAR VIDEO/TEXT PERFORMANCE

http://www.nytimes.com/interactive/2009/12/28/us/200912-bombshell-audio/index.html



GLAMOR IN BURLESQUE AS PAIN RELIEF...FOR TERROR...DANGER EXPECTANCY OF THREAT TO LOSS OF PARTNERS ETC

NYT ARTICLE VIDEO 12.27.09

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RAWAR....A VIDEO INTO ROYAL FEAST OF FLAME EROSTOCRACY CRAZE AND CRAVE AND VIOLENCE...THE ELECTRONIC HERDING IN 'MASS OCCUR' MOMENTS OF MADNESS...THE RHYTHMS OF BUILDING PYRAMIDS IN A 'ONE OUT OF MANY...E PLURIBUS UNUM INERTIA...THE SENSES IN AL VEL LEGIS BOOK OF THE LAW----AIR TO THE LETTER A AND VENUS TO THE LETTER L...BEAUTY IN THE WOMAN SATISFIED OR 'FILLED' WITH CREATIVE ENERGIES...

A NAME AS FRAME 'LAW OF FLAWS'...TEMPO OF EROS IN SENSAMORA ACOUSTICAL RESONANCE FOSTERING 'THE MAD THUD IN THE MESS THIS'...A CRAZE AND CRAVE DIONYSION REVELRY OF WINE, WOMEN AND SONG...A CONSTANCY OF ARISTOCRACY TOP OF THE PYRAMID IN TRICKLE DOWN ECONOMICS IN A DANCE WITH AVATAR, MEDIUM, SAVANT, CHANNELS OF ROLE/PERFORMANCE/EROS...

RAWAR.....................................................YOU TUBE VIDEO ...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ejVzpZWEOIQ

ESSAYS AND POETICZ OF RAWAR...BLOG

http://rawarway.blogspot.com/



IT IS RAWAR TEMPO AS TIME BEYOND ONE'S OWN...THE TIMES AHEAD OF THE ELECTRONIC HERDING OF GLOBAL ORDERINGS AS MASS OCCUR MADNESS DRIVES MOMENTUMS OF BUILDING PYRAMIDS...

R A W A R




“China’Gas Living FireCreative Dynamism…


Law of Eros


Royal Axis Feast of Flame


Gemini Towers


Rising BloodstormWargasm


Terror Terrain


Encountering Electronic Real Estate


Collapsing in


Dust of Nothingness


Yin Ashes of Diamond Backs


Burning Pentagon States


Of ’W’ imprints


On Stony Eyed Psyche eyes


Of Mass ‘Munch Screams’


Lost Innocence


Searching for YesterdayAmidstRed Lightning Fury…Seething Paroxysm


The Colliding Resonance of Crusaders


A JIHAD Flaming Surprise


InfernoOf Yankee ‘OS’ Towers


Of Rising Faith-Based Traumatized Patriots


Of Shattered invincibility


A Convulsiveness . . .


Demanding‘Might’ and New Ordering


Activating John Wayne Ways


Where Myths and Dream WarriorsEchoRAWAR…


God of Conquest


We seeViewings of an Empire Rhythm


Of Electro-Colony Containment


Legitimizing Secrecy and ‘Privilege’ . . .


In A Supreme Court SelectedBush Pilot…


Driving KA - Bul(l) Time


The Kinetic Inertia of Empire,


Wargasm MadnessAlong Edges of ‘China’Gas Valley . . .






Where Excessively Eroticized Money


Is The Erostocracy Energy and Fertility


Of ‘The Quick’ . . .Sanding . . .


The Suicidal High Jack Madmen


Flying out of Boston


In Echoes of Aristocracy‘Boss’ Ton


And ‘Clean Up Boston Harbor’…


A China Closet,


A Great Wall with Red Sox


In Diamond Time


The ‘Double You’Time of ‘W’ State of Ash Edges


And Phoenix Bird Risings


A Nadir of Circularity CyclesOf Blood Storms . . .






Warring Forces Grasping forSouls…


An Ongoing Conflict of Acoustical Resonance,Wrestling with Power and Desire,Undercurrents of Rage …The Psyche` Hub Hearing Ball Parks


And Small Town Values


Of Generosity and KindnessFacing ‘reactivity’ of the ‘hateful’In Brainstorm, FirestormAwakenings . . .To Mass Occur ‘Nothing’ Suddenness ,Deep DarknessOf Twin SorrowsAnd Siren Streams of AgonyEveryman seeing Past . . .KnowingA Momentum of Horror,A Corporate AssassinationMurdering Ordinary People . . .


What AscendsIn the Collapse ofIron Edges AndConcrete?


Aristocracy Comfort with EnergyAmplification and SurveillanceStrengthening


The ‘Have to Have’ Globalization Focus


ThroughSufferings of Red, WhiteAnd Blue


And a Rainbow ‘out of luck’;‘The Equation of Nothing’…The AbyssOf Something ‘UnexpectedAnd Terrible’


A Time of Being . . . BeingOverwhelmed






In Grief,Mourning . . .How?What Direction?The RAWAR KernelPassageOf Deep Winds






ThrustsThroughBust Line Throat Upheaval


The White Hot TipIgniting Surging UrgesOf All in Flight, Fright






An Opportunity for Rage,The Creative Anger Channeling . . .Finding One’s Fire . . .“Control”ofThe Etheric StreamAnd Psychic OvenOf Ecstasy . . .‘Soul Are’ WindsGrouping and GatheringCommon GroundOf OneOut of Many . . .






MovingOedipus Eyes in Pyramid TimeReaching forThe Aggression of Prolonged CoitusIntensity . . .As Savanting ElectronicSurrogatesQuesting In The Alliance ofCourtship Ways






Seek To Heighten encounters,Utilizing The Combat of WithholdingAnd Releasing…The Seeming CrueltyOf Oppositional Forces,Uniting These Charges of Nerves To Achieve . . .






Balanced Intent and ActionIn Emotional DepthsOf Chase and SufferingThrough Yin Echoes …‘Warding Off’ The Soul of Vaginal PresenceSeeking Yang GenerationA New Expansion . . .A Penetration Opera Drama,A Hip War in FleshyEmpowerment . . .The RAWAR Urgency ImpulseTo Conquer ‘Nothingness’ . . .Arousal . . .Activation . . .Assertion . . .Eros on FireWargasm EcstasyWho moves through and aroundThe Enveloping Blood Lust Rage






The Shock Theater of Terror‘EROS’ Becoming ‘SORE’The Reversals, A weapon of War . .Conduits of NumbingThe Charged EmanationsOf Channelings‘Whim’Men Striving for ControlBeyond Big ‘O’ and ‘Brando’ Time






The “Mad Thud in the Mess This”Timings!!The Maximum VelocityDoing Double Time . . .What Becomes?When Freedom Motions And NormalcyAre Terror Restrained






“You are With Usor Against Us”The First Mass, Celebration of RAWARA Shared Collective of Vengeance… Beware, a Lack of PatienceIn Wargasm Hungers…Anyone . . . AnythingMay be Fuel in the Feast of FlameThe Creative Dynamism The Eros FireOf Phallic Ways . . .Deep Wounding Compels Deep ResponseA New Generation of AffirmationValidating RAWAR






The Lack of Breath Imbalances ofReactivity“Under” Control . . .Panic Paranoia RigidityContractions, SplittingAnd Thought…ChillingAs Narrowing of Expression, Terror TimeForces Winds of Accomodation Adaptation and Temporary Necessity . . .






The War A’Broad’   She Dreams NightmaresOf RAWAR Momentum 

Piercing Inner Yin Space

Of Sacrificial Virgins ...A ‘Range’ War in Shadow Boxing Double ‘U’Gender Tempos

Driving Hidden Agendas To the Surface…

Finding Each and Everyone’s Fire,Creative ‘Eros’ Juices . . . ‘O.J.’ Juices   

Drip! Drip! Drip!Chinese Water Torture Inertia Flow

Moving Through Media Psyche` Time . . .

 The Whirling Dervishes In World Trade Center Time   

She Widens Along Horizon Hip Holdings  

The ‘Hence’ Winds   

Compelling Fears and Brick Fortressings,  

The ‘Broader-Wider’ Gap …  

Mimesis…Wishing for Something Else  

Knowing RAWAR TensionsWatching Electronic Prostitutes and Entertaining Illusions of ‘Security’Doing Empire Builders ‘Lip Service’Splitting off from the Real . . .

  The RAWAR Production of TumescenceTo conquer . . .To Release . . .To Resolve . . .To Own the Terrain . . .To Solve the Castle of Puzzles   

The Masculine Eros  

Meshing, Absorbing,Drawing into  

Blood Pressures…The Feminine Eros‘Taken . . . Achin’  

A RAWAR Way of Ordering 

The ‘missing’ . . . She wishes to be won   To arch and swell,  

The Rage and AggressionsWithheld…   A ‘Contempt’ for The ConquerorThe Detumescence Ground War  

Getting Ready forA Better Lay . . .Oh, How the Wounds Never go Away…Wounds, Wooings, Wound up…The Lover Knows Tempos Of Orgasm Convulsiveness   

Beyond Wargasm Conquest,The Big ‘O’ is Clarity of Will  

Undiminished by  Smotherings  And Suppressions Of Self   Beyond Holding


The Last Tone,Feminine Resonance of Containment....

She DependsUponThe Ongoing Madness of the Sound  

As RAWAR Normalcy Echoes of Violence...Go on and on . . .RAWAR must be   Damned and Denied...

Churches, Cults, Sects, Institutions Of Clock Time…  

Numbing and anaesthetized ‘OS’ Time   

‘Have to Have’ Yin Time   

A Man Alone State…Deep in the Depths of Pyramidism    

A Percipient PoeticCrying Out . . . for “New Justice”...

A Libra Balancing Act of The Edges of Ashes  And Embers . . .Empire Star Wars in The Force Of Enlightenment   A Momentum of CurrencyWatching Manipulations...

When ‘They’Make it Look Like the Other Person“Did” It… 

‘Propaganda by Deed’…  

A Wargasm Ecstacy…


Of Perverse Eros and Destructiveness…

RAWAR Demanding more Control . . .She Widens Hips Containing Daughter’s Lips  

He Thunders Defenses and Yin Daughter Hips . . .The Hip Plateau Plane Of ‘China’Gas Valley…

Crescent Dreams Through Surging Meridian Channels Of Electronic Seduction . . .

Where is Real TimeWhen ‘Nano’ Time Races on Ridges Of Venus Wishes . . .

RAWAR Wargasm Explosiveness

Potency of the “Unexpected And Terrible”Rain Down In a Neverending Madness and Recurrent Christ Consciousness In Conflict with World Ways…Suffering  

A Soul Means

Quest for Release  

As a Mortality‘Outcome  

’RAWAR Rhythms…There Must be a Higher Authority . . .‘Allah’…The GodKnowing Conflicting Crusaders Justifying Death…In Darkness Shadows of Rage…Angles, Angels and Lost DevilsWith ‘Nothing More to Lose’WatchingDancing SurrogatesPerforming in ‘Fish Fire’ Winds . .


.An Ecstatic Burning Intensityof Muscle Firings And Contractions


The Arousal Demanding SatisfactionFor the Sufferings…The Emotional Voluptuousness

Must be Found In Paradise Or Anaesthetized in Danger and Dreams…The Triangulation of Ways

A Mediation of Desire Through the Missing And Potential…Beyond Mistrust Tempos    

The Dissatisfactions of Bait and Switch...

While SeekingShelter and Material Security  

WhenTime is   

Is BeyondOne’s Own


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FOR THE END IS RIGHT THERE IN THE BEGINNING…IT IS WITH OPEN EYES THAT ONE MUST LEARN TO LIVE…TO BE IN ‘AS IS’

AS ONE DOES, IN RESPONSIBILITY FOR, ONE’S ACTS AND EMOTIONS… EMOTIONALITY…FOR NOTHING  UNLESS IT IS FELT…FOR THINGS NEED TO BE REALIZED IN ALIVENESS…PASSION AND PRESENCE…TO SEE IN INNOCENCE WITH PURENESS IN INTENT…TO ACT IN PURPOSE…DIRECTION IN HEART… WILL OF BECOMING…TO SENSE IN KNOWLEDGE OF DIFFERENCES OF THE WAYS OF THE WORLD AND HOW ONE LIVES ONE’S LIFE …………………TO BE IN UNITY OF BECOMING AS ONE MOVES IN TIME WITH THE RHYTHMS OF THE UNIVERSE…ONE’S ACTIONS PASSING ALMOST UNNOTICED..............FOR SOMETHING…IS AND ‘WAS ALWAYS’………. THE ‘INNER NECESSITY’……….. IN ‘WINNING’ ONE’S OWN LIFE…ONE’S CENTER…EVEN… AS… ‘LOSING’……….. WAS THE STATE OF ‘BEING DEFINED’……… IN A LOSS OR DISAPPOINTMENT……….. OR TRIAL… …UNDERGOING ‘THE TESTS OF TESTES’ IN POTENTIAL ‘PERMEATION’ AFFECTS…CANARY VIGILANCES AND ALARMS OF THWARTINGS AND WARDINGS…FOR WHAT IS THE ‘HEART OF THE MATTER’…WHAT RESONATES IN ALIVENESS UNMUFFLED BY COATINGS AND NUMBINGS…THINGS NEED TO BE CRYSTALLIZED AND REALIZED…THE HEART OF ‘AS IS’…


IT IS BELIEF DRIVING BEHAVIORS THAT MUST FACE SANTAYANA ‘THOSE WHO DO NOT LEARN FROM THE PAST ARE CONDEMNED TO REPEAT IT’ AS THE GROUNDHOG DAY MOVIE SUGGESTS THAT ALTERED BEHAVIORS, LEARNED IN ENCOUNTERS [THEREBY RESULTING WITH A CLEAN SLATE OF THE PAST] IS THE OPPORTUNITY TO REALIZE ‘INNER NECESSITY’… TO BRING THINGS TO REALIZATION…TO NOT SHOOT ONESELF IN THE FOOT…TO LEARN THE PATHINGS OF GETTING NEEDS MET…TO REFEEL OR FEEL AS ONE DISTILLS ESSENCES AND SHEDS EXCESSES…




IT IS THE INNER COURAGE TO RECOGNIZE ‘MIND-SET’ IN ‘CART BEFORE HORSE’ EXPECTANCY AND ‘COMPRESSED BEING’ STRUGGLING IN THE MEDIATIONS OF ‘FALSE URGENCY’…BLIND DESIRES IN AN AGENDA OF MEDIATING ‘PRESSURES’ OF AN ‘IMPOSITION ORDER’ OR A DEFENSIVE FORTRESSING OF ‘VANITY FEARZ’…THE PATTERN INERTIA OF APPROACH-AVOIDANCE ‘FLIGHT’ IN INABILITY TO BE IN ‘AS IS’…






FOR ‘SHE LOVES IMAGINARY MEN MOST OF ALL’…THE FALSE URGENCIES BEING ‘PROPPED UP AND/OR RELEASED’ IN A POWER GREATER THAN LOVE STRUGGLE OF ‘WANTING TO BE WANTED’…AN ANXIETY IN THE DISTORTIONS OF HUNGER, LOVE, AND DEGREES OF WILL OF CONNECTION RESULTING IN HYSTERIA SENSUALIZATION BLINDNESS…A NARCISSISTIC SELF ABSORPTION OF ‘DISTANCINGS’ AND MISTRUST OF THE SELF THAT IS IN THE MECHANISMS OF ‘INTENSITY-DENSITY’…THE QUEST OF ‘TENSION BUILDING AND RELEASING’ IN A FRAGMENTATION OR LESS THAN FULLNESS OF SELF…






‘FOR SUCCESSFUL ORGASM MAY NOT BE WHAT IS DESIRED’…





IT IS THE ‘COMPRESSION-COLLISIONISM’ OF SATISFYING THE DEMANDS OF AN ‘IMPOSITION ORDERING’…WHETHER ‘FEMME FATALE’ EXTREME OR ‘TREASURED LOSS’ GRIEF…THE GOAL OF THE ‘DRIVE’ IS TO RELEASE ITSELF-AS SO MANY BLOCKS AND OBSTACLES OR MECHANISMS OF FORTRESSINGS FOR ‘SAFENESS’ OR ‘POWER SEEKING IN CONTROL’ ARE THE FROZEN OR PRIMAL ICE OF A PSYCHE ICEBERG…






HOW DOES ONE ‘BECOME RESOLVE’ IN HEART PATHING OF WILL OF CONNECTION? HOW DOES ONE ACCESS ‘TRUTH OF URGENCY’ IN VISCERAL PASSION AND WHOLISM OF BEING…HOW DOES ONE LEARN ‘THAT WHICH MUST BE LET GO’ AND WHAT IS ESSENTIAL?






THE KEY IS IN THE EMOTIONALITY…THE PROCESS OF SURFACING FEELINGS IN ORDER TO KNOW THE REAL SELF…TO BE WILLING TO ‘WORK THROUGH’ BETRAYALS OF THE SELF’ IN ONE’S YEARS OF SIMPLY ‘MEDIATING’ AND ‘REACTING’ AND ‘COMPLYING’…THE ‘SEEMING NORMALCY’ OF DENIALS, SUPPRESSIONS AND BLOCKINGS…THE ENVIRONMENT OF ‘FALSE AND DISTORTED’ THAT SEEKS ‘CONTROL’ EVEN AS ‘ILLUSION AND SELF DECEPTION’ ARE THE WAYS OF ‘ENDURANCE’ OR ‘WINNING’…





TO CHANGE BELIEFS AND THE WAY ONE THINKS…TO ALTER THE GROUNDINGS AND CLEANSE THE ROOTS IN A RECONSTITUTION OR RECRYSTALLIZATION OF ENERGIES…TO MOVE WITH COMPASSION FOR ONE’S JOURNEY AND TO ABSOLVE ONE’S BETRAYALS OF SELF AND OTHERS…FORGIVENESS…






IT IS ‘TREASURED LOSS’ BEING SURFACED IN BREATHING AND MOVING THROUGH THAT ENABLES ONE TO GET THROUGH BETRAYAL SENSES OF BLOCKINGS AND FORTRESSINGS…IT IS FORGIVENESS IN MOVING THROUGH THE KINWEBBINGS OF GUILT, SHAME, OPPRESSIVE COMPLIANCES AND THE VIOLENCE OF MEETING UNJUST WAYS…






IT IS SEEING THE ‘PROJEKTION FAMILY’






AS YOU ARE WITH US OR AGAINST US…EVERY ONE ‘PERFECT’ IN OUR FORTRESS AND BINDINGS…THE OTHERS ARE THE ONES WITH DISTORTIONS AND DAMAGES…FOR THERE IS USUALLY SOME FORM OF A ‘GENERATION FLIP’ OR ‘REACTIVITY FORMATION’ AS THE MOTHER COMPENSATES FOR THE MOTHER SHE DIDN’T HAVE IN LIVING ‘TO PROTECT OR NOT PROTECT ENOUGH’ OR BE CLOSE BECAUSE SO MUCH OF HER GROWING UP WAS LONELY…THE SON LIVING LESS THAN THE SHADOWS OF THE FATHER…






THE RESULTANT REBELLIOUSNESS IS A LACK OF RESPECT FOR THE DIGNITY OF THE GROWTH OF THE IMAGINATIVE AND CREATIVE IN THE CHILD…IT IS THE RIGIDITY OF ‘REARING’ INSTEAD OF ‘RAISING’ THE CHILD TO BREATHE INTO ‘NATURALNESS’ IN CURIOSITY AND VITALITY…HEALTHY CIRCUMSTANCES TO ‘THRIVE’ AND NOT BE ‘CENSORED AND SABOTAGED’…TO BE LOVED AND NOT BE INDOCTRINATED INTO A BELIEF BEHAVIOR RIGIDITY OF IMPOSITION THINKING…TO BE TAUGHT A ‘GOLDEN RULE’ PATHING OF RESPECT FOR OTHERS WITHOUT THE ‘SCOW’ OF HUMILIATIONS[SHOULD, COULD, OUGHT, WOULD]…






‘DON’T TELL ME HOW TO RAISE MY KIN..KIDZ’…FOR CONTROL IN ‘LIMITING’ IS NOT THE CONTROL OF DEVELOPMENT IN SKILLS OR WILL TO BE…THE DISCIPLINE OF TOO MUCH COMPLIANCE AS CONTROL LEADS TO ILLNESSES AND THE DISTORTIONS OF PSYCHE AND BODILY FUNCTIONS…FROM EYESIGHT TO SEXUALITY, FROM COMMUNICATION ‘TRUST’ TO MISTRUST…

‘FOR A MANS WOUND IS WHERE HIS GENIUS WILL BE’…INCOMPLETENESS…IMBALANCES…THE STRUGGLE THROUGH THE ‘COMPENSATIONS’ OF TRYING TO MATCH BEHAVIORS AND EXPECTATIONS…TO KNOW ‘BETRAYALS OF SELF’…TO TAKE ANXIETY STEPS IN BRINGING FORTH WHAT WILL ILLUMINATE AND EXPAND…




IT IS KNOWING THE CLARITY OUT OF THE VANITY FEARS AND CONFUSIONS IN ONE’S SENSES…FOR THE DESIRES OF CURIOSITY IN ‘COURAGE TO CREATE’ AND TO ‘EXPLORE’ BECOME THE VEHICLES FOR ACHIEVEMENTS OF IDENTITY… THE IMPRINTING ALIVENESS OF ‘CORE’ FIBROUSNESS AND MARROW, CIRCULATIONS OF ‘WISE BLOOD’ IN HEALTHY RESONANCE IN CHAKRA VIBES AND WISDOM NERVES GUIDING ONE INTO RESOLVE…TO BE IN ‘AS IS’ IN TRANSFORMATION…CHANGES...............THE WISDOM TO ‘COUNT ON’ AND ‘TRUST TO’ IN STATES OF WEARINESS AND LAUGHTER…THE DETERMINATION PERSISTENCE STRENGTH TO GO INTO ‘SPIRALS’ OF DISCOVERY, ASSESSMENT AND ‘LETTING GO’…FOR ONE LEARNS THAT THE ‘MEDIATIONS’ AND FORTRESSINGS TO DEFEND, THWART AND DEFLECT WHILE SEEKING TO GET NEEDS MET IS SELF DEFEATING…






SO MUCH OF THE TIME IS LOST IN YESTERDAZE…AS ‘FALSE URGENCY’ IN ANXIETY OR PAIN ESCAPISM…AS ‘SUFFERING’ FOR ‘NOT BEING’ WHAT THE ‘IMPOSITION ORDERING’ COMPELLED…IN DRAMAS TO BE IN GUILT OR SHAME AS DIFFERENCE FROM EXPECTANCY DEMANDS…AS DEFEAT AND DEPRESSIONS OF POWERLESSNESS AND NEGLECT…






TRUE URGENCY BREATHES THROUGH THE ‘BUSYNESS’ OF FALSE URGENCY AND FORTRESSINGS…






TRUTH OF URGENCY IS THE WAY TO ACCESS THE SPONTANEITY OF PLEASURES IN REAL TIME PRESENCE OF RELEASINGS OF EMOTIONALITY THAT ARE WITHHELD, SUPPRESSED OR DENIED…IT IS NOT THE CONTROL WAYS OF FALSE URGENCY MEDIATIONS THAT SATISFY BUT THE SURRENDERINGS TO REALNESS OF TRUE URGENCY…






FOR YOU CANNOT REPAIR CONTROL…YOU CANNOT GO TO THE SOURCE AND HOLD A RIGIDITY BELIEF BEHAVIORISM…YOU CANNOT MEDIATE THEN AND NOW…THE OLD ORDER MUST COLLAPSE IN BIRTHING THE NEW WAYS…



TRANSFORMATION IS MOVING THROUGH THE TIME OF ‘CRISIS-RISK-OPPORTUNITY’ OVERCOMING DEFENSES THAT PRECLUDE REALIZATION OF POTENTIAL… IT IS SEEING AND CHOOSING WISELY SO AS NOT TO MAKE THINGS MORE DIFFICULT EVEN IF ‘MORE FAMILIAR’…IT IS CHOOSING WILL OUT OF THE INERTIA AS MERE SAFENESS OR RECKLESS RISK IS MISSING THE OPPORTUNITY TO REDIRECT IN HEALTHY INNER NECESSITY NEW WAYS…






IT IS PRESENCE RECOGNIZING THAT THE RECOIL OR CONTRACTION BACK TO THE FAMILIAR WILL GENERATE A FAR GREATER CRISIS AS MORE WILDERNESS WITHIN BECOMES MORE NECESSITY OF ‘CONTROL FORTRESSING’ AND THE ‘SPLIT-OFF BEING’ OF FALSE URGENCY MAY SOLVE THE PROBLEM OF ‘PROTECTION’ YET LACK THE NEWNESS OF BECOMING SOMEONE EMERGING INTO PRESENCE OF HEART WITHOUT THE ‘DENIAL AND AVOIDANCES’…






THE CART BEFORE THE HORSE VISION AND PURPOSE…






FALSE URGENCIES FOSTER ‘INTENSITY-DENSITY’ BEHAVIORS THAT BIND AND BLIND, COMPEL STRATEGIES OF IMITATION IN DESIRES TO GAIN MORE POWER OR CONTROL AND INCREASE ‘DEADENING WITHIN’ AS WHAT IS INCOMPLETE ACCUMULATES AND DISTORTS…IT IS ILLNESS MASKED IN BEHAVIORS SEEKING TO APPEAR AS IMAGE CONGRUENT WITH ‘BELIEF’ OR WHO I WANT YOU TO SEE…WHO I WOULD LIKE TO SEE MYSELF AS…






THEREIN LIES THE NECESSITY ‘RISK OR DANGER’ OF ‘PAIN MANAGEMENT’ OR ESCAPISM RELIEF… IN SELF AUTO-EROTICISM AND HYSTERIA SENSUALIZATION DRAMAS…TIMES OF BY WHATEVER MEANS NECESSARY IN BEHAVIORS OF ‘PROMISCUITY AND TEMPORARY RECKLESSNESS’…A BELIEF THAT ‘INTENSITY’ CAN OVERCOME THE SENSES OF INNER DEADNESS IN ‘DENIALS, BLOCKS,DISTORTIONS AND AVOIDANCE FLIGHTS’…THUS DENSITY SEEMS ‘GROUNDED AS A HOMEOSTASIS’ CENTERING EVEN AS IT EATS AWAY AT POTENTIAL FOR BECOMING…ONE BECOMES AN ‘EXPERT IN MEDIATION’ OF ‘SHAME, GUILT, MANIPULATIVENESS’, ETC. AND IN MOST INSTANCES DEVELOPS WAYS OF SELF DECEPTION TO EMULATE OR PRETEND TO BE…TO SEEM TO BE AS IF ONE WERE A ‘DWARF LION’ OR CHAMELEON IN THE DESERT…

FALSE URGENCY IS KNOWING ‘WARRIOR STATES’ OF FORTRESS CONSTRUCTION AND PSYCHE ENDURANCE WITHOUT THE ‘AT PEACE’ OR PLEASURE SPONTANEITY AND RELAXED CONFIDENCE OF TRUSTING IN THE SURPRISES OF ORGASMIC ERUPTIVENESS…IT IS THE PSYCHE REALM BEYOND THE MASTURBATORY OF EXCESSIVE SPLITTING OF SELF TO MANIPULATE THE SELF…TO CONTROL THE SELF FOR FEAR OF TRUST IN THE SELF IS THE FEAR THAT EATS THE SOUL…




TO OVERCOME THE SELF OF TRAUMATIZED CHANNELLINGS OF WHAT IS ACCEPTABLE AND LIMITING ONE MUST BE IN FULLNESS OF OPPOSITIONAL ENCOUNTER…TO OVERCOME THE BETRAYAL SELF OF MEDIATIONS AND POWER DEAL MAKINGS ONE MUST RECEIVE AND PENETRATE IN AN INTERACTIVE FREEING WITHOUT CONDITIONAL CONSTRAINTS OF ‘SUBSERVIENCE’…IT IS THE ‘ACT OF LOVE IN LOVING’ THAT MATTERS IN BONDINGS OF TRUTH OF SUCK AND F**K…






IT IS BEING WITHOUT INTENT TO HARM AS ONE DOES ‘INNER NECESSITY’ INTENTION OF MEETING NEEDS TO TRANSFORM OUT OF THE CONSTRAINTS’ OF SUFFOCATING AND OPPRESSIVE IMPOSITIONS…THE RULINGS OF SOMEONE ELSE’S AGENDA…






THE ‘ALL TOO FAMILIAR’ THAT KEEPS ONE FROM BECOMING…THE ‘ARRESTED DEVELOPMENT’ DEADENINGS OF ‘GOING ALONG TO GET ALONG’ UNTIL ONE SWALLOWS ONE’S OWN TONGUE…ONE’S EXPRESSION AND VITALITY OF IDENTITY…






FOR THE CERTAINTY TESTS OF DESIRE ARE IN ‘CART BEFORE THE HORSE’ ALARMS THAT PRECLUDE INTIMACY OF PRESENCE…THE ‘AGREED UPON’ AS ‘PRE-NUPTIALS’ THAT HAVE A ‘CHILLING AFFECT’ ON POTENTIAL…THE FEAR AND MISTRUST MODES THAT SEEK TO CONTROL AND LIMIT AND DEFINE THEREBY ENSURING ‘SUFFOCATION’ OF WHAT SEEKS TO BE…






IT IS THE ANGST OF A ‘BETRAYAL OF SELF’ AND THE LIMITATION OF THE OTHER IN DENYING POSSIBILITY THAT ENGENDERS A SELF-CENSORSHIP OR BLOCKING…THE FEAR OF POWERLESSNESS IN BEING OVERWHELMED COMPELS MANY TO LIVE FAR BELOW THE SURFACE IN THE DEEP WATERS OF THE UNCONSCIOUSNESS WHERE FEARS RULE…






AS ERIC HOFFER WROTE ‘EVERY NEW ADJUSTMENT IS A CRISIS IN SELF ESTEEM’…






KNOWING…






IT IS ONLY IN TIME THAT ONE LEARNS THAT ONE CAN SURVIVE AND ENDURE THE COMPRESSIONS OF AN ‘IMPOSITION ORDERING’…IT IS FINDING A WAY TO ‘PROVE ONESELF’ AND THEN BEGIN TO DECONSTRUCT THE BARBICAN SHAME FORTRESS OF DEFENSIVENESS IN ORDER TO BREATHE INTO ONE’S REAL FEELINGS…






FOR ‘NOTHING IS REALLY KNOWN UNLESS FELT’ [PRIMAL SCREAM-ARTHUR JANOV]…






IT IS THE LIFE OF MOVING THROUGH A CRISIS WHERE CHANGE IS BEST ENCOUNTERED IN OPENNESS IN SEEING THROUGH THE ‘ANGST AND PSYCHE CLUTTER’ TO ACT IN A NEW SPIRIT OF VITALIZATION…






COURAGE IN THE POSSIBLE…WHAT IS IN ‘MOVING FORWARD’ WITH CHANGES IN BELEFS AND BEHAVIORS…THE WILL TO LIVE IN TRUTH OF ‘URGENCY’…THE REAL TRUTHS OF ‘LETTING GO’ IN ORDER TO MOVE INTO AN EMERGING REALNESS…EXCHANGES OF FLUIDS AND HUNGERS OF AROUSED VISCERAL AWAKENINGS AS THE VITALITY SECRETIONS AND SEMEN ENMESH…THRIVING IN NEW HORMONES, ADRENALINES AND OXYGEN ALIVENESS…






NEW WAYS WORKING THROUGH OR FACING THE INNER VIOLENCE OF THE CONSTRUCTED IMAGE OR CONTROL AS ‘IMPRESSIONS’ MANAGEMENT…LEARNING TO BE REAL BEYOND THE SERVITUDE OF MEETING EXPECTATIONS… THE IMPOSITIONS OF BEING AS ONE IS REWARDED FOR BEING…






THE CRISIS-RISK-OPPORTUNITY TIME OF RECOGNIZING THAT THE CREDENTIALS OF ACHIEVEMENT ON MY RESUME WERE NOW MERELY ‘HOLLOW’…MERE ECHOES OF A TIME OF LEARNING…THE ECHOES OF A JOURNEY OF MEDIATION OF THE SOCIO-SYMBOLIC ECONOMIC BUILDING PYRAMIDS ORDER…





MY EVOLUTION IS IN SENSING THE WAYS OF ‘MEDIATION’ OF THE ‘COMPRESSION-COLLISIONISM’ IN ‘WHAT CAN I LIVE WITH AND WHAT CAN I GET AWAY WITH’…POLITICAL MANAGING OF THE FORCES AS ONE DOES NOT GO INTO THE ‘O’ OR ABYSS WITHIN…THE ‘O’ OF ‘BAOKA’ INNER JOURNEY…THE ‘O’ OF NOTHINGNESS, EMPTINESS, THE VOID…






‘WU’…THE CHINESE CHARACTER FOR NOTHINGNESS, EMPTINESS AS IN THE SPACE WITHIN A CUP…THE ZONE OF ‘WITHIN’ AS FEATHER LIGHTNESS OF BEING…AS ‘HOLLOWNESS’ CONTAINERING OF IDENTITY OF ‘WELL-STEIN’…THE CREATIVE CAULDRON WITHOUT PADDINGS, DAMS AND COMPRESSIONS OF BELIEF BEHAVIORS…THE YIN-YANG CONFIDENCE OF EXPRESSION AND RECEPTIVITY GROWN IN LEARNING ‘SELF-TRUST’…






SELF COMPASSION IN BEING IN PRESENCE WITHOUT SELF CENSORSHIP AND INHIBITORY SUPPRESSIONS OF ‘TRUE URGENCIES’…






FOR THE END IS RIGHT THERE IN THE BEGINNING…INSTINCTS AND DESIRE IN A WILL TO CONNECT…MOVING INTO AND BEING IN ENVELOPMENT AS REAL ‘NEED OF KNOWING’ WITHOUT THE PRE-CONDITION ‘OBLIGATIONS’ OF FEARS AND CERTAINTY INERTIA…






IT IS AS IF ONE IS FREE TO BE IN A LAST TANGO IN PARIS OPPORTUNITY PATHING OUT OF GRIEF, SHAME, GUILT AND REPETITIVENESS…TO LOVE AND ENCOUNTER IN GRASPING FOR DEPTHS OF ‘UNBLOCKED, UNSUPPRESSED AND UNDENIED’ WHERE SAFENESS IN URGENCY IS RESPECT TO ACCESS ‘CATHARSIS’ OF WHAT DEMANDS TO BE REALIZED…






TO OVERTHROW THE ‘TYRANNY’ OF THE MONITORING MASTER OF SHAME CASTLING…TO BREAK OUT OF THE ‘MANUFACTURED SELF’ OF DEFENSIVE REACTIVITY FORTRESSING AS MAINTAINED BY THE SKILLFUL CHILD OF SOCIO-POLITICAL EROS MEDIATION …AN EXTERNALIZATION MEDIATION OF A CONSTANT ‘COMPRESSION-COLLISIONISM’…






‘FOR THE END IS RIGHT THERE IN THE BEGINNING’ AND THE WILL TO OWN ‘VULNERABILITY’ AS WELL AS ‘SELF-DETERMINATION’ IS IN THE JOURNEY TO ACHIEVE A ‘GROUND ZERO’….AN EMPTINESS…A HOLLOWNESS AS THE ‘O’ ABYSS DEEP WITHIN…






TO KNOW ‘HOLLOW’ AS ‘NOTHINGNESS’ AS ONE REMOVES THE SOURCES OF ‘EROSTOCRACY’ CRAVE AND CRAZE…TO KNOW A NEVERENDING PROCESS OF ‘BAOKA’ IN FACING IDENTITY IN ‘BA’ AS SOUL, IN ‘O’ AS NOTHINGNESS, AND ‘KA’ AS THE PERFECTION OF THE DOUBLE FOR SOCIO-SYMBOLIC AMPLIFIED USEFULNESS…IT IS SEEING THAT ‘PERFECTION HAS NO CHILDREN’ BECAUSE ‘KA’ PERFECT IS THE PSYCHE ORDERING OF RITUAL PROJECTIONISM…IT IS THE ‘ALL IS CLOUDED BY DESIRE’ TRICKSTERISM OF ‘COYOTE’ DREAMS AND ‘AL VEL LEGIS’ RHYTHMS OF UNITING ENERGIES INTO THE PSYCHE FORMS OF A LION…






THE WAY OF THE ‘LAW OF FLAWS’ OF ‘KA’ PERFECTION…THE NAME RESONANCES OF ‘DOUBLE TIME’ AS WAS SAID IN ‘ALICE IN WONDERLAND’ THAT ONE MUST RUN TWICE AS FAST JUST TO STAY IN THE SAME PLACE…THE ‘MING’ NAME VIBRATIONS OF COINCIDENCES IN THE TAO TE CHING AS THE UNIVERSE ’WAY’ OF KNOWING…






IT IS AN ’AL VEL LEGIS’ CUING RHYTHM OR SYSTEMIC EROS DEVELOPMENT IN WORDS AND CREATIVE GUIDANCE OF ‘AL’ AS ‘AIR’ TO THE ‘GREAT ONE’ IN BREATH, CHI, PRANA, ETC AND ‘VENUS’ TO THE LETTER ‘L’ OF DIRECTION FOR THE WOMAN SATISFIED OR FILLED WITH CREATIVE ENERGY…






IT IS THE CREATIVE UPHEAVAL CONVULSIVENESS IN ‘PERFECT’ RESONANCE AS ‘ALL’…THE CUINGS OF LIFE FORCE FIRES OF TRANSFERRENCE AWAKENINGS…






IN THE TIME OF ‘MASS-OCCUR’ MOMENTS OF MEDIA EMOTIONALITY TRANSFERS THE WAYS OF THE ‘ELECTRONIC HERDS’ WHERE ‘A FEW RECOVER THEIR SENSES SLOWLY AND ONE AT A TIME’ IS THE ‘WAY’…THE KNOWLEDGE OF ‘MADNESS’ IN REACTIVITY FORMATIONS AS WELL AS INERTIA RIGIDITY VISIONS OF POLITICO ‘OPPORTUNISM’…THE LEVERAGINGS OF THE ‘RAT RACERS’ IN GLOBALIZATION ‘SPEED OF THE GREED’ AND ‘US AGAINST THEM’ RAWAR BEHAVIORS…






IT IS THE TIME OF GREAT CONFUSIONS OF ‘O’ ABYSS AND HOLLOW VICTORIES FOR ELITES…FOR EMULATION THROUGH MIMESIS ‘IMITATION’ WAYS AS A STRATEGY OF LEVERAGING VIA ‘ENVY’ OR DISPLAY IS THE REWARDED BEHAVIORS OF THE QUIET VIOLENCE OF COMPLIANCE……






THE MANY SEEK POWER THROUGH IMITATION OF WHAT SEEMS POWERFUL…THE MANY BELIEVE ONE WILL BECOME WHAT ONE EMULATES AND BE WILLING TO DECEIVE THE REAL SELF IN ‘FALSE URGENCY’ IN ORDER TO GAIN SOMETHING IN THE SOCIO-SYMBOLIC ORDERING…IT IS THE SERVITUDE TO THE PERFECTION INERTIA OF ‘KA’…THE DOUBLE TIME OF AL VEL LEGIS[THE BOOK OF THE LAW]…THE ‘WAYS’ OF BEING ‘OF USE’ RATHER THAN DRIVING ONE’S OWN INDIVIDUATION…TRANSFORMATION…






THE VULNERABLE AND WOUNDED OR ‘NOT GOOD ENOUGH’ CHILD GROWS UP IN ‘FOR EVERY CHILD IN OUR CARE AS MUCH NEUROSIS AS HE CAN BEAR’…COMPELLING THE GENERATION OF A ‘MANUFACTURED SELF’ TO MEDIATE AND ENDURE THE AFFECTS OF BEING IN AN ELECTRONIC COLONY OF PERFORMERS AND SAVANT LEVERAGERS…AN EMOTIONAL DESERT…A GROUP MIND SET IN ‘IMPOSITION ORDERING’…AN ‘ILLUSION REALITY OF SPLITTING OFF’ AND IMAGINATIVE PSYCHE SPACES…IN WHICH ONE ‘PRETENDS’ AND ‘DREAMS’ TO ADAPT TO ADVERSE CIRCUMSTANCES OF THREATS AND ‘COMPRESSIONS’ WHERE ONE’S REAL SELF IS NOT STRONG ENOUGH TO OVERCOME THE MEANS OF THE ‘MANUFACTURED SELF’…






ALIENATION IS THE DISAGREEMENT WITH THE REASONABLENESS OF A SOCIETY’S PURPOSE…

LIFE IS COMPLEX. WE DO WHAT WE HAVE TO DO UNTIL WE ARE ABLE TO DO WHAT WE TRULY FEEL. WE DO NOT KNOW WHAT WE TRULY FEEL UNTIL WE REMOVE THE ‘FILTERS’ OF ‘MANUFACTURED SELF’ HABITS AND CLEAR OUT THE ‘HUNGRY GHOSTS’ OF SOFT AND HARD ADDICTIONS THAT RULE THE INTERNAL ‘CASTLE OF PUZZLES’…






TRAUMAS AND WOUNDS, COMPLIANCES AND MEDIATIONS…SUFFOCATIONS IN THE ‘COMPRESSION-COLLISIONISM’ OF BEING ‘OVERWHELMED’…FOODS AND ENABLING DEPENDENCIES PROPPING UP OUR ‘MANUFACTURED’ DISTORTIONS…THE TENDENCIES IN ‘YOU CANNOT TOUCH ME IF I AM AS YOU WISH’ OR THE CONTROLS OF MAKING THE ‘PERSON’ FIT THE BELIEF WITHOUT SEEING THE DEGREE OF ‘BETRAYAL’ OF THE REAL SELF AS ONE SEEKS TO MAKE ‘THINGS’ FIT A CERTAIN ‘WAY’…






‘TRUE URGENCY’ IS BREATHING THROUGH THE ‘FALSE URGENCY’ OF MEDIATING ANGST AND THE IMPOSITION PRESSURES OF SOMEONE ELSE’S DEFINITIONS…HOUDINI ESCAPISM AND CONVENIENCE PACIFICATION IN MEDIA DREAMS OF ‘WANNABE HEAVEN’…FOR THE PREACHING OF ‘SELF RELIANCE’ IS FREQUENTLY DONE BY THE ‘CHARGED’ MEDIUM AVATARS OF ‘TALKING SMITH’ ELECTRONIC SURROGATE REPRESENTATIONS…






TRUTH OF SUCK IS TRUTH OF URGENCY IN DESIRE TO TASTE AND FEEL…TRUTH OF A WILL TO CONNECT IS ‘VULNERABILITY’ AS BEAUTY AND THE BEAST MOVES THROUGH DEPTHS OF THE MANUFACTURED FALSENESS CONSTANTLY PEELING AWAY VEILS AND BARRIERS AND BEING EXPOSED…A TIME OF ‘TRUING’ AS ONE ACTS IN ‘PATHING OF FEELING’ HEART SENSES OF REAL BEYOND THE INERTIA OF ‘WANTING TO BE WANTED’ OR THE ‘MANIPULATIVENESS’ OF POWER SEEKING…






LIFE IS COMPLEX. DREAMS ECHO DEEPLY. POWER DESTROYS LOVE.

FOR ‘EVERY CHILD IN OUR CARE AS MUCH NEUROSIS AS HE CAN BEAR’-W.H.AUDEN






FOR THE ‘PSYCHIC’ OR ‘CANARY’ SAVANT-AVATAR-MEDIUM-CHANNEL PERSON IS QUITE ‘COMFORTABLE’ IN THE ZONING ‘CORRIDORS’ OF INTERNAL CONFLICT RESOLUTIONS…THE FAMILIAR INNER TERRAIN OF ECHOES AND ACTIONS OF ‘FIGHT OR FLIGHT’… THE WITHDRAWALS OR DRIVES TO CONQUER IN FALSE URGENCIES OF ESCAPE OR RELEASE…THE INERTIA PATTERNS OF ‘MORE SO’ AND RECURRENCY OF THEMES…






WHO IS ‘ME’ WHEN ONE LIVES IN ‘KA’ AMPLIFIED USEFULNESS’ MOST OF THE TIME, FOR MOST OF THE TIME IS ‘MING’ TIMING IN NAME RESONANCE UNITING ENERGIES OF THE SUN AND THE MOON…






THUS IT IS ‘SEEMINGLY EASIER’ TO BE IN ‘KA’ WHERE IMAGES AND DISPLAYS ARE AS ‘ASSETS THAT ARE WORTH MORE THAN LIFE ITSELF’ THAN SOUL AS ‘BA’…






THE CRISIS-RISK-OPPORTUNITY PLATEAU OF ‘TALENT IS IN THE CHOICE’ AND OVERCOMING INERTIA IS THE OPPORTUNITY REALM TO FACE THE DUALITY AND THE ABYSS OF NOTHINGNESS IN ORDER TO OWN ONE’S OWN ‘BA’…ONE’S SOUL…






EXISTENCE AS A ‘SURROGATE’ OR MEDIUM OCCURS IN LIGHT SPEED…IT IS THE SPEED OF ‘NANO’ AND ‘TAO TE CHING’ IN ‘COOL FIRE’ BLINDINGS IN A ‘GENERATION’ OF STATES AND BEING… IT IS REMOTE DIRECTED ‘COOL FIRE’ AS A HYPNOTIC TRANCING IN THE ‘BEING HIT BY LIGHTNING’ AS THE REMOTE DIRECTED SIGNALS ‘STOP TIME’ FOR THE DURATION OF USE AND ‘BLOCK CRITICALNESS’ IN THE MOMENTS OF ENCOUNTER…THE REDIRECTION OF COOL FIRE INTO MERIDIAN PATTERNS OF POINTS OF LIGHT FLOWS…THE CORRIDORINGS OF CHANNELLED ‘LIGHTNING’ IN PERFORMANCE ENHANCEMENT AND DEVELOPMENT OF TALENTS…






FOR SUDDENLY, ‘THE UNEXPECTED ONE CAUGHT FIRE’…

IT IS CONSCIOUSNESS IN THE MOMENT OF ‘CRISIS-RISK-OPPORTUNITY’ AS ‘RISINGS OUT OF SHADOWS’ COMPEL NEW GROWTH IN NEW WAYS…BEING ‘READY’…DOING ‘HOMEWORK’ AND FINDING THE ‘COURAGE TO DO MORE THAN TELL OTHERS WHAT THEY ‘WANT TO HEAR’…THE ANGST OF THE RISK IS IN THE ‘REVERSAL OF FORTUNE’ PIVOT POINT OF CHOICE…TO SEE ONESELF IN A NEW WAY AND CHOOSE ‘WISELY’ IN ‘FEELING ONE’S TRUE URGENCY’…KNOWING THAT WHICH MUST BE LET GO AND WHAT SEEKS TO COME FORWARD…






ANXIETY…SENSING ‘NEST’ SAFENESS AND COURAGE TO EXPLORE…SEEING ‘BETRAYALS’ OF SELF AS ‘MEDIATION’ TIMES OF ‘NECESSITY’…SEEING ‘GOALS’ OF SATISFYING ‘IMPOSITION VALUES’ AND HAVING THE STRENGTH OF INSIGHTS TO GENERATE NEW RHYTHMS OUT OF THE ‘CONTRACTIONS’ OF THE ‘MANUFACTURED SELF’…






THE ‘FAMILIAR ORDERING’ DISSOLVING INTO A REAL ‘INNER NECESSITY’ OF TRUE URGENCY…IT IS THE ADVENTURE OF GENERATING THE REAL SELF USING THE DIONYSIAN EROS PATH OF THE HEART WINDS…THE WINDS IN MY HEART…THE WINDS IN MY EYES…






‘THE WIND IN MY EYE’ PSYCHE BIOGRAPHY BOOK OF MY JOURNEY OF DREAMS AND HEALING…THE ‘BAOKA’ JOURNEY TO MEDIATE, CONFRONT AND GENERATE THE SPIRIT IN ITS’ DIALECTIC OF BECOMING…






THE ‘CONSTANT ECHOES’ OF THE ‘FOREIGN’ OR ‘VISIONS’ AND ‘SUGGESTIONS’ PLANTED IN MY BRAIN…THE TERRAIN OF ‘CUL DE SAC’ HABITS OF INERTIA OF ‘ACCUMULATIONS AND STORAGE’ BECOMING MORE OF THE SAME EVERYDAY USING ‘PERSONALITY AND IMAGE’ TO ATTRACT THE ‘HUNGERS’ OF EMULATION DRIVEN BEINGS…THE HUSTLER ‘DEAL MAKERS’ OF ‘MUTUAL RECIPROCITY’ MANIPULATIONS IN EROSTOCRACY CRAZE AND CRAVE ‘WONDERINGS’…






SOUL AND SOLE…






TO BE IN ‘BAOKA’ IN ORDER TO OWN ‘BA’…TO FACE THE EMPTINESS OF ‘O’ AND AN IMPOSSIBLE BELIEF IN ‘SOMEHOW’ OWNING MY OWN SOUL…MY ‘BA’…IS IT ‘SURRENDER’ AS KNOWING THAT ‘THE AVATAR OR MEDIUM OR SAVANT’ USEFULNESS IS WHAT IS ‘CHARGED’…VALUED AS ‘HYPERSEX’ CREATIVITY OF ‘AMPLIFIED USEFULNESS’…THE ‘LOAN-LY’ LONELINESS OF DUALITY ‘SPLITTING’…BEING OF ‘USE’ IN A PINBALL WIZARDRY OF KINETIC PERCOLATIONS…A ‘RARE AIR’ BUBBLING UP IN A SOURCE MODEL ‘CAULDRON’…MY STRUGGLE FOR BAOKA DIGNITY IN ‘LETTING GO’ OF THE ‘KA’ OR ‘DOUBLE’ OF MY SOUL…






WHAT IS THE ESSENCE DISTILLED INTO ‘BA’…REAL SELF AS SPIRIT OR SOUL…BEYOND THE MEDIATIONS AND CONTROLS OF ‘BAOKA’…BEYOND THE IMPOSITION SILENCINGS OF MEDITATIONS…BEYOND THE WITHDRAWALS OF FLIGHT AND ESCAPE FROM THE DEMANDS OF OTHERS…BEING AS PEACE OF BEING IN ACCESSING THE LIGHTNESS IN RELEASINGS FROM THE OVERLOAD DRAMAS OF ‘SATISFYING THE DEMANDS OF IMPOSITION’…






THE ‘MAN OF KNOWLEDGE’ GRASPING TOWARDS WISDOM OF THE SAGE YET BEING IN ‘ZERO’ AS A ‘PROMETHEAN’ MAN VULNERABLE TO THE WRATH OF THE GODS…AN ALCHEMIST CULLING FIRE TO CREATE WHILE ‘BEING WILLING’ TO WEAR THE MASKS OF ‘KA’…






THE DUALITY DIONYSIAN THEATER OF THE ‘MASKS OF KA’…A NAME IMPRINTING OF IDENTITY CORRIDORED INTO THE SKEWERING OF ‘SPECIALNESS’ OR ‘AMPLIFIED USEFULNESS’…BEING OF VALUE IN EXTENSION OF THE ‘PITCH MASTER’ OF THE EROSTOCRACY…THE CURRENT MANAGER OF FOCUSED ‘MEDIUM MANAGEMENT’…THE CURRENT ‘GODFATHER’ OF DETERMINING WHO AND WHEN IS TO BE ‘HIT BY ‘COOL FIRE’ LIGHTNING’ ACCENTUATIONS OR LIMITS…THE POWER OF ‘ACOUSTICAL BLINDNESS’ AS A ‘NON-ORDINARY’ REALITY…A TIMING TIME OF ‘MING’ UNIFYING THE HEAVENS AND THE GROUNDINGS OF BEING…IT IS SEEING THE SAVANTING OR CORRIDORING AS MERIDIAN CHANNELLINGS OR ZONING OF ROLE, PERFORMANCE OR TALENT…






IT IS CONSCIOUSNESS IN ‘TALENT IS IN THE CHOICE’ AS ONE MOVES IN ‘SUGGESTION’ AND A WAY OF ‘TRANCEROS’ VITALITY…SENSING THAT ‘TALENT’ IS OF NO ACCOUNT WITHOUT OPPORTUNITY…






FOR ME IT IS TO TOUCH…TO FEEL…TO PAT AND SENSE IN MY HANDS AND FINGERS…TO GRASP…TO GUIDE AND FACILITATE, TO LEND AND REASSURE WITH COMFORTING HANDS…HANDSOME IS AS HANDS ‘SUM’ DOES…THE EYE-HAND COORDINATION EBBING IN THE DESIRES IN MY EYES…TO BE IN THE ‘QUICK AND THE DEAD’ ZONINGS OF THE ‘DISTORTIONS OF HUNGER’…THE MANY ‘OUT OF BALANCE’ AS THEY LEVERAGE AND COLLECT MATERIALS FOR MEDIATION OF DREAMS AND COMPRESSIONS…






INTO THE DEPTHS…SEEING THE LOAN ‘LY’ ADVERB OF HUNGER…THE DISTORTION OF THE ‘HUNGERS’ AS ‘SOLUTION’ TO THE TENSIONS OF EXCESSIVELY ACTIVATED EROS ENERGIES…A ‘LAYING ON OF HANDS’ TO ‘CALL FORTH’ OR ‘BRING FORTH’ IN A ‘PERCIPIENCE’ THROUGH ZONES OF ‘WOUNDEDNESS’ AND THE ‘UNLIVED PLACES WITHIN’…THE SITES OF THE BLOCKS, FEARS AND ‘SHUT DOWN’ THAT ARE IN ‘FALSE URGENCIES’ OF ANGST AND THE HESITANCIES OF A LIFETIME OF DENIAL…

FOR 2/3RDS OF THE CENTRAL NERVOUS SYSTEM CONNECT TO THE BACK OF THE EYES…WE ARE ‘VISUALLY OVERLOADED’ WITH ‘SEXOMONEY MEDIA’ IMAGERY AND OUR BEING VIBRATES IN TUNE WITH THE LATEST ‘MASS-OCCUR’ MADNESS…MOST COPE AND ENDURE IN USING THE AVAILABILITY OF ‘INSTANT PACIFIERS’ OF ‘HOUDINI ESCAPISM’ THAT ARE CONVENIENT…THE PADDINGS, PACKINGS AND ANAESTHETIZING OF SEX, DRUGS,ENTERTAINMENT AND FORMS OF SUBSTANCE ABUSE…






IT IS ‘WHAT CATCHES THE EYE OF ‘INNER NECESSITY’…FOR THE MANY WHO LIVE IN THE DEGREES OF DEADNESS OF THE ‘MANUFACTURED SELF’ THE WAYS OF ‘INTENSITY-DENSITY’ SEEM TO BE ‘ALIVE’ AND ‘LIVING’ YET THE FACT OF THE ‘MATTER’ IS THAT THE ‘CONTAINMENT’ AND ‘BUILDING NARROWED INTENSIFICATION’ IS A FORM OF SUFFOCATION…A MEANS TO LIMIT OR INHIBIT, A WAY OF COATING AND CONFINING, A SUPPRESSION OF REAL FEELINGS THAT ARE UNMITIGATED BYTHE MASTER EMOTION OF SHAME ENFORCEMENT OF THE CODES OF MAINTAINING THE ‘MANUFACTURED SELF’…THE SERVITUDE OF THE IMPOSITION ORDER OF KA…






TO SEEK TO OVERCOME THE ACOUSTICAL BLINDNESS OF THE REMOTE DIRECTED ‘COOL FIRE’…TO DIGEST IT, TO ASSIMILATE IT, TO CORRIDOR IT INTO MERIDIAN PATTERNS AND ‘TALENTED WAYS’…TO KNOW THE CONVULSIVENESS AS AN UPHEAVAL ‘OPPORTUNITY’ OF ENHANCED WAYS…A ‘NON-ORDINARY’ REALITY OF ACTIVATIONS OF EROS ENERGIES …A HYPERAROUSAL AS ‘EXCESSIVE SENSUALIZATION’ THAT IS AVAILABLE FOR INDULGENCE OR TRANSFORMATIVENESS…






IT IS CRISIS-RISK-OPPORTUNITY IN THE MOMENT OF ‘THE SIGNAL STOPPING TIME/BLOCKING OUT THE MEMORY OF THE MOMENT’…THE ‘HYPNOTIC AFFECT’ AS ONE LOSES ‘CRITICALNESS’ TO THE SOUND IN ITS ALL PERVASIVENESS WITHIN…THE UNCONSCIOUS TREMORS IN THE RUSH INTO A TALENT OR SKILL…

IT IS DREAMS ECHO DEEPLY UNTIL AFTER THE FACT WHEN ONE REALIZES THAT ‘SOMETHING HAPPENED’ AND ONE THEN SEES THE MYRIAD CREATIVE EXPLANATIONS OF THE ‘ALIEN’ EXPERIENCE…THE MANY ‘SUGGESTION TRANCING’ SOLUTIONS OF EXPLANATION FOR THE SEEMING ‘LOSS OF TIME’…LOSS OF THE MEMORY OF THE MOMENT…THE LOSS OF PRESENCE THAT AS A BETRAYAL OF SELF EATS AWAY AT IDENTITY…






WHAT IS TRUE URGENCY IF ‘FALSE URGENCY’ DEFINES SO MUCH OF ONE’S BEING…THE ‘PAN’-NICK OF A ‘HYSTERIA INDUCED’ STATE COMPELLING ‘SOLUTION’ OF CORRIDORING INTO PERFORMANCE…SOLUTIONS OF REPETITION AND SATISFACTION OF AN ‘IMPOSITION ORDERING’…THE DEEP POWERLESSNESS, SENSES OF ‘NOT GOOD ENOUGH’, FEELINGS OF LACK AND ‘UNWORTHINESS’…ISSUES OF WHAT IS REAL ‘SELF WORTH’ OR ‘SELF ESTEEM’…






A PARALLELISM IN A MIRRORING…BEING IN SHARED PSYCHE SPACE…THE ‘BLIND SPOT’ THAT IS THE ‘HEART OF THE DREAM’…THE ENERGY ZONE PARALLELISM AS SOMEWHERE IN THE DEPTHS OF ‘WELL-STEIN’ INNER RANGINGS OF ‘YIN-YANG’…THE GREAT DIFFICULT ENERGY ACTIVATION REALM OF CREATIVE AROUSALS OR AS MACHIAVELLI WROTE IN ‘CLIZIA’- ‘FOR THE CLOSER A MAN IS TO HIS DESIRE, THE MORE HE DESIRES IT, AND SINCE HE CANNOT HAVE IT, IT CAUSES HIM GREATER TORMENT’…






IT IS THE CREATIVE DEPTH OF ‘KA’ DOUBLE TIME…THE ONENESS INCORPORATING THE MIRROR PARALLEL OF THE ‘OTHER’…A DOUBLING OR MIRRORING OF THE ‘OTHER’…THE BA ‘KNOWING’ OF THE ‘OTHER’ IN SENSES AND SOUNDS…THE ‘SOMETHING IN THE WAY SHE MOVES’…IT IS ‘MIRROR MAN’ AS TALENT TO ‘KNOW THE ECHOIC’ OF ‘THOUGHTS, FEELINGS AND MOTIONS’ OF THE OTHER…






IT IS BEING IN THE RHYTHMS OF THE GODDESS OF WISDOM-MINERVA AS ‘CENTRAL NERVOUS SYSTEM’ VIBRATIONS…VIBRATION ESPECIALLY AS AFFECTED BY ‘COOL FIRE’ ACTIVATION AND THE ‘IMPLOSIONS’ OF MEDIA ‘MASS-OCCUR’ MOMENTS PENETRATING DEEP WITHIN…A COMPRESSION-COLLISIONISM SPARKING ENDURANCE CHANNELLINGS OF RESOLUTION AND MEDIATION…THE NERVES AND CHAKRAS SPINNING IN ACTIVATIONS SEEKING CLARITY AND DIRECTION…






THE BAOKA DRAMAS…






THE KA OVERLOADS BECOME DEFINITION AND REWARD EVEN AS ONE BECOMES INCREASINGLY AWARE OF THE CONFLICT WITHIN…THE STRUGGLE FOR OWNERSHIP OF ‘TRUE WILL’ AND ‘BA’ AUTHENTICITY OF SOUL DRIVES ONE INTO THE ABYSS OF THE ‘GREAT ‘O’’ OF EMPTINESS OR NOTHINGNESS..THE ‘DEPTHS OF THE PRIMAL’ THAT MAY BE FROZEN IN FEAR AND HYPERVIGILANCE…THE DEADNESS WITHIN ‘PROTECTING’ AGAINST THE FEAR OF AWAKENING…

FOR ‘SHE IS PUT TO SLEEP BEHIND A WALL OF FIRE AND ONLY THE BRAVE HERO IS ABLE TO BREAKTHROUGH’ TO ‘RESCUE’ THE PRINCESS…


FOR SHE IS AN ‘ICE QUEEN’ ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE ANGRY DISSATISFACTIONS OF INCOMPLETION OR UNREQUITED…A ‘TANTRUM WOMAN BLOCKED AND ‘IN NEED OF TANTRIC RELEASES’…THE COURAGE TO GENERATE REAL PRESENCE THAT IS BEYOND AN IDEALIZED OR ‘IMAGE’ VERSION OF SELF…A ‘MANUFACTURED SELF’ LACKING FULLNESS AND STUCK IN AN ARRESTED DEVELOPMENT OF ‘COMPLIANCES’…






IT IS THEN THAT ONE REALIZES THAT ‘SUCCESSFUL ORGASM MAY NOT BE WHAT IS ACTUALLY DESIRED’…FOR THE COMPRESSION PRESSURES OF ‘FORTRESSING’ AND ‘IMAGING’ MAINTAIN SAFENESS IN A DEFENSE AGAINST THE ‘THREAT OF NOTHING’ OR ‘SHAME EXPOSURES’…IT IS BEYOND SKILL OR ‘PERFORMANCE’…FOR ‘LETTING GO’ IS FRIGHTENING IN KNOWING ONE CANNOT GO HOME AGAIN…ONE CANNOT GO BACK TO SOME IDEALIZED VERSION OF ‘IDENTITY’…






IT IS ‘OVERCOMING THE SELF’ IN BECOMING THE SELF…IT IS ASSERTION OF FULLNESS OF HEART AND BODY IN HEALTHY SEXUALITY UNMANAGED BY FANTASY OR EXPECTANCY OF ANTICIPATORY RESULTS…IT IS REAL TIME BEYOND THE ‘INTENSITY-DENSITY’ OF LEVERAGINGS AND ‘GETTING OFF’ RELEASINGS…






IT MEANS GOING INTO THE ‘O’ OF THE EMPTINESS OR THE ‘O’ OF THE DISTORTIONS OF HUNGER…THE ‘O’ OF NOTHINGNESS THAT IS A BLACK HOLE OF ‘WHO ONE WILL BE’ AFTERWARDS…IT IS CALLING FORTH ALL FROM WITHIN INTO PRESENCE…IT IS NOT ‘MUTUAL RECIPROCITY’ BUT LOVING IN THE DEPTHS WITHOUT THE CONTROLS OF SELFISHNESS AND ‘IMPRESSION MANAGEMENT’…






NORMALITY BECOMES HYPERVIGILANCE AS THE ‘MASTER EMOTION’ OF SHAME DICTATES BELIEFS AND BEHAVIORS…DEFENDING THE FORTRESS OR PALACE OF ENDURANCE AND ‘FALSE URGENCY’…THE BARBICAN OF THE DISTORTIONS OF APPETITES AND MISDIRECTIONS…THE INTERNAL ARENA OF THE HUNGRY GHOSTS OF SOFT AND HARD ADDICTIONS…






THE SAFE AND FAMILIAR OF INERTIA AS ‘FEELING INADEQUATE’ OR ‘INFERIOR’ WHERE ONE LACKS A SENSE OF VALUE COMPELS ‘COMPENSATIONS’ IN APPEARANCES OR ACCUMULATIONS, BLOCKAGES OR PADDINGS, ANAESTHETIZED SENSES OR ‘STONE-WALLING’ PATTERNS OF CONTROL AND AVOIDANCES…FOR WHO IS ABLE ‘TO LET GO OF THE EXCESS BAGGAGE’ AND BE ‘MINDFULL’ IN PRESENCE ‘AS IS’…






WHO RECOGNIZES ‘APPROACH-AVOIDANCE’ IN SEEKING TO GET ONE’S NEEDS MET…WHO SEES THE SELF-DEFEATING WAYS OF THE HYSTERIC WHO TRIES TOO HARD AND FAILS IN BEING UNABLE TO BE IN REAL FEELINGS…






IT IS THE GREAT BATTLE OF ONE’S EXISTENCE…BAOKA…THE SOUL, ABYSS AND REWARDS OF DUALITY …THE PRESSURES OF VITALITY IN THE MIDST OF DREAD, MORTALITY AND THE EXPECTANCY OF BEING ‘OVERWHELMED’ BY ‘COOL FIRE’… ‘BEING HIT BY REMOTE DIRECTED LIGHTNING’…






THE DREAMS, THE SURRENDER, THE POWERLESSNESS IN OBTAINING THE ‘ILLUSION’ OF POWER IN ‘ROLE’ OR ‘PERFORMANCE’…THE ‘GET IT WHILE YOU CAN’ OF ‘TAKE THE MONEY AND RUN’…A SPOTLIGHT REWARD PATHING OF ‘KA’ IN MEDIATING ‘NOTHINGNESS’ OF THE ‘O’ ABYSS…THE ‘DEAL’ OF ‘BA’ TO BE IN THE WORLD…






YET, ONE IS HUMAN AND HAS HUMAN NEEDS AND THE RIGHT TO FOLLOW THE DRIVES OF ‘TRUE URGENCY’…THE NEEDS OF REAL ‘INNER NECESSITY’…IT IS TO REALIZE THE FULLNESS OF BEING HUMAN…






SEXUALITY OWNERSHIP OF FEELINGS AS ‘WHAT IS FELT’ IS KNOWING…DREAMS BREAKING THROUGH BARRIERS OF FALSE URGENCIES THAT MASK AND PROVIDE ESCAPISM FROM ANXIETY AND DENIALS…






THE MEDIUMS WEAR THE MASKS OF THE GODZ AS THEY PERFORM IN PHOTO-OPS OF FISH FIRE WINDS…THEY AS ELECTRONIC SURROGATES DANCE IN TRANCES OF SUGGESTIONS AND JOURNEY IN TRIPS OF MAGNETIC REPRESENTATION…A FIELD OF DREAMERS ACHING AND BRAKING FOR WISHES OF CROWS…






AN ELECTRONIC COLONY AND AN EMOTIONAL DESERT OF ‘COOL FIRE’ BLINDING IN SOUND SENSES…

CALIFORNIA L.A.TIMES PICTURE 9.01.09



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